Kenneth Maswabi
When I break down
The ignition stops working
Words are frozen mid-sentence
Emotions flood the system
Choking off the steam
Life becomes a distant dream
Everything breaks down
Into pieces of
meaninglessness
There is no taste to the air
in the room
My heart punched by the
escaping chaos
There is nothing left to hold
onto
Except to let go
To not grasp at straws is
wisdom
To let the chemical processes
cease to exist
And let the open mouth of
nothingness embrace my being
Today, I broke down
It was a beautiful picture of
sadness
Unconditional Love took over
the reigns
And allowed me to grieve
When I break down
I become the heartbeat of
consciousness
The logical processes are
abruptly terminated
The algorithms dissolved
The robotic arm of my being
disengaged
Losing all my physical
attributes
The spiritual being
illuminated
It is an amazing experience
To be alone in the aloneness
And yet be with all of
humanity in the realm of the heart
Totally aware of the
meaninglessness of life
And the meaningfulness of
life
It is scary, beautiful and
beyond the grasp of the logical mind
It is only the Spirit that
understands
The bottom end of life
©Kenneth Maswabi
