Wanda Dewdrops
I HAVE TRIED
Over time
As time walks
Sometimes it crawls
As some time it limps
Dragging itself like a
tortoise
Moving like someone being
pulled
Like a snail time has tried
walking.
I've been defeated
I've been pulled back
To the shadows of time
To the scars and wounds
That has failed to heal with
time
But accumulated blood and pus
That has now resurrected
again.
I thought that I'll forget
with time
That I'll blame myself and
let it go
That I will heal from the
shock I got
When I found you with her on
our bed
Our sanctified and
matrimonial bed
Where we made love and
promises
Where we shared the fruit of
the garden.
How could you do that to me
How did you even start
undressing her
Telling her all sweet words
meant for me
Calling her sweet names you
call me
Telling her how sweet, sexy
she's
Climbing on top as you drive
her
As she shouts your name on
top of her voice.
Where did I fail
What's that she could give,
that I didn't
For all those years we've
been together
Was she more attractive and
beautiful than me
Was hers holding you tighter
than mine
Was hers having flavours and
more sweetness
I've never stopped asking
myself endless questions.
I've tried to forget my past
I've tried to forgive myself
for all that happened
I've tried convincing myself
I had no fault
I've tried to focus on my
life now and that to come
I've deleted pictures in my
gallery and your contacts
But it happened and there's
nothing I can do to change it
So I'll try again, nurse my
wounds, heal and move on with my life.
®Wanda Dewdrops
Kenya 🇰🇪
04/01/2023
